Where You're Going

(Written May 2, 2023)

I sat in my tears, pouring out my despondent thoughts. A supposedly hope-filled person now in shambles.

A nice apartment. No one to share it with.

Goal lists with unfulfilled hopes and dreams. Failures for every intention.

So I do what you’re supposed to do when you’re feeling sad and I talk about it with a trusted friend.

And then here comes the guilt for feeling guilty in the first place and burdening another with my pile of shame.

Have you ever been there? I was there…just last night.

YOU ARE NOT ALONE. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!

So many lies infesting our brains that we can’t even think straight. It feels like torture. Pain we simultaneously think we deserve but can’t endure.

But, I woke up this morning. So did you.

Today is new. A new chance to become. A new chance to choose joy and hope and new life.

It’s about who we’re becoming. We’re works in progress. And we are so messy sometimes. But those messy moments expose places we can improve.

Today is a day to improve just a little bit. To become a little less imperfect. Part of my improvement today is just writing this post. Just saying “I struggled so much last night…but that doesn’t prevent me from somehow helping others.”

Where we’re going is better than where we’ve been.

And please, please, my friend…remember you are not alone.